I watched Prince of Persia last night with my husband. No no, the title doesn't represent that movie, but the trailer  I watched before the movie starts. Both Indonesian movies, one called The Sexy City, and the other called Istri Boongan.

*for the istri boongan I guess the movies is soo lame and such a low quality type of movie I even can't find the poster on the web.


By seeing the poster I guess all of us get a clear picture how the movie going to like.
It amuses me. Call me conservative, old fashion and against modernity or whatever, but last time I check, this kind of movies never got in to the theater! It's soo vulgar and against the east values that we suppose to have and it's so.... Hollywood.

But not in a good way.

Especially Istri Boongan with Julia Perez as a star. Ugh..she got the nerve to be the candidate of Bupati Pacitan, with that morale! in that kind of movies!

Anyway, I just can't help to think why are we so fussy and willing to put our effort and attention to the scandal  of the A,L,C movies but let those 2 movies got into the theater? I bet those movies won't be help to improve our nation morale too.

*sigh*

During my passion searching I come to realize, wait no, to certain that Architecture is definitely Not my passion. Architecture is my way of making money. And as we all knew, what we do for a living is not necessarily what our passion is.

And after a few weeks not dealing to architecture at all, I find it very relaxing and when I imagine that world, and the works, I convinced myself not to go back.
So I focused to my dreams, my goals, and how to achieve them. The problem is, most of my dreams required big amount of money to achieve it.

And then suddenly, after almost a year, my former bos called me, and offered me a project.

Yes, an architecture project.

And I got tempted.
Well the money is good, maybe if I do this for a while..

I haven't decided yet. But one thing for sure, the road for a passionate life is full of temptation.

I always thought that having your own business is a privilege. Its not for everyone. It's for strong people, physically and mentally. I watched with my own eyes, friends, relatives, member of my families who start up their own business, but in the end failed to go on. And have to face the worst.

Bankruptcy.

And I always thought that I'm not one of those people. Not the strong minded person and definitely not the one who can bare all the risk.
But what if I am? what if all I need to do is try and find out and who knows I can make t big.
Or go for bankruptcy.
Which is a scary thought. But they say fail is a learning process for success right?
I'm sure all the businessman (and business woman) have this thoughts before.
Or they haven't? which only shows that I really don't have it in me.

Is basically planning and studying for a project. And I gladly to say, it's not architecture project :D
It's not much actually, but it's a major step for me to get out my comfort zone. To actually DO something.
Of course, with saying my magic spell over and over again in my head;

"Lakukan saja apapun resikonya!"

Yeah!

" A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity, an optimist see the opportunity in every difficulty " - Sir Winston Churcill

It's really hard to believe in yourself when the person who suppose to believe in you seemed not to.


*sigh*

OOoooohh...
This excitement.
This clear image in my mind.
This happiness.

I think I found my passion!!

*exclaimes yay!*

I won't revealed anything before I'm 100% sure about this feeling.
I'll give it a day or two and we'll see :D