Totally forgot that our 2nd anniversary was on the 14Th this month!
No celebration of course..-_-;;
Oh well, better late than nothing :p
Happy anniversary my love
Hope we can be a great parents and keep loving each other..
Amiiiinn :-)
Sebenernya lagi kangeeeenn banget sama suami :'(
Tapi demi menjaga perasaan suami, ga boleh2 manja2 dan bilang kangen2 terus, biar suami ga kepikiran dan bisa konsen kerja..konon begitu.. *istri yang baik :D*
Tapi beberapa hari ini jadi mellow..suka dengerin lagu2 romantis, tapi yang jadul2, rasanya lebih everlasting daripada lagu romantis jaman sekarang *ah bilang aja ga apdet lagu2 terbaru, :P*
salah satunya ini, yang versi eric martin tentunya
I like the feel of your name on my lips
And I like the sound of your sweet gentle kiss
The way that your fingers run through my hair
And how your sip lingers even when you're not there
And I like the way your eyes dance when you laugh
And how you enjoy your two hour bath
And how you convinced me to dance in the rain
With everyone watching, like we were insane
But I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul, soul completely
I love the way you love me
I like way that you sing sweet and low
When they're playing our song on the radio
And I like the innocent way that you cry
At old time movies you've seen hundreds of time
But I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul, soul completely
So listen to me and I could list a million things
I'd love to like about you
But they all come down to one reason
I could never live without you
I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul, soul completely
I love the way you love me
I love the way that you love me
cunyaa..cepet pulang yaa..:(
Carter jumper tebal 129.000
Carter 5 in 1 71.500
Ace hardware (lagi diskon 70% :p)
Bak mandi oko 70.000 (pokoknya made in Germany, lumayan yaa :D)
Baby bather 30.000, sama merknya
Pasar Baru
Bra menyusui 25.000
Celana lampin be nice kids 2 35.000
Celana tutup kaki hello baby 1/2lusin 50.000
Minky 2 insert 102.000
Coolababy bamboo 2 insert 92.000
Cluebebe coveria 86.000
Yoli babyshop,BTC
Gurita ibu 21.000
Tmpt bedak (yang 2 sekat, plus tempat kapas) 13.000
Baby socks 2 pcs 13.500
Set topi,kaos kaki,sarung tangan 18.000
Rubber mat, small 7.500
Popok tetra 1/2 lusin 23.500
Jumper tutup kaki motif 20.500
Baju tanpa lengan motif 3 pcs @ 7.500
Baju lengan pendek nova 2 pcs @ 5.000
Baju tangan pendek sweet koala, gratis :D ( baru ngeh pas sampe rumah di struknya ga ada :p)
Mivi Babyshop, lagi sale :D
Baju kutung chiyo 7.830
Selimut baby GAP 47.500
Handuk bayi sedang 27.450
ITC Kebon Kalapa
Celana buka kaki non brand 1/ lusin 30.000
Baju lengan panjang bonbon 1/2 lusin 35.000
Popok Bayi kaos dobel 2 lusin 48.000
Bedong 1/2 lusin 42.000
Handuk Kecil Pio 1/2 lusin 30.000
Waslap isi 3 15.000
Gurita ibu 20.000
Selain itu ada juga perlengkapan bayi yang udah dibeli sejak 3 bulan, hihihi waktu itu belinya di Singapur sebelum balik ke Indo, dan ada juga oleh2 mas Alfa dari Abu Dhabi :p
Box set of 3 harganya lupa :p
Handuk bertudung kelinci $19
Finger toys $10
Bib set of 2 $2.90
Babycare mat $10
Soft toy bola $3
Anchorpint, Singapore
Jumper celana panjang cotton on $7
Jumper celana pendek cotton on $7
Sepatu baby fox $3
Gift from my SCA friends :)
Mainan soft toy musik baby bow
Sepatu baby baby bow
Oleh2 cunya dari Abu Dhabi
Sweater baby GAP
Alhamdulillah, sejak resign ada aja proyek yang lumayan mengisi waktu luang. Tadinya malu untuk menampilkan proyek2 itu di blog :P Tapi majang poto masakan yang ya gitu deee aja berani, masa ga mau majang hasil karya yang alhamdulillah cukup menghasilkan? Siapa tau ada yang liat dan minta digambarin, hihihi amiinn
Project: Student housing and private house
Location: Bandung
Berhubung mas alfa pulangnya pas wiken, kita mau nyobain kontrol di melinda sekalian survey kamar bersalin.
Kmaren mas Andri dan Sari juga lagi di Bandung, jadi kami kontrol bareng2 deh (Did I mention that my sister in law is also pregnant and mine is only a week older than hers? :D how cute is that?).
Pekembangannya:
BB ibu: 57.5 kg
Lingkar peyut ibu: 96cm (ini mah ga dicek di dokter, emaknya aja iseng ngukur sendiri :p)
BB bayi: 800 gram..sebulan naik 2 kali lipetnya yaa :O
Panjang bayi: 17 cm...hmmm ini kayanya panjang sampe tulang ekor aja yah? soalnya kalo di internet katanya mestinya udah 30 cm-an, cmiiw.
Kita berbondong-bondong masuk 2 periksa, 2 bumil, 2 bapak2 dan mama, hiihihi,karena Sari udah penasaran banget sama jenis kelamin dedek yang mestinya udah ketauan, jadi mereka periksa duluan (dokternya yang di Jakarta ga terlalu telaten, jadi lum dikasih tau deh jenis kelaminnya). Apalagi feelingnya perempuan, jadi penasarannnn :D
Taunya..eng ing eng...
Laki-laki juga! hihihi, mana pas di usg tit*tnya meuni keliatan, sampe di zoom sama ibu dokternya, sangat jelas, aiih lucunyaaa...
bener-bener kaya kembar dong nantinya, kebayang kalo pas ulang taun yang ada rebutan mainan, hihihihi
Pas giliranku, alhamdulillah Nabil sehat-sehat aja, hasil tes tokso juga alhamdulillah negatif, trus air ketuban dan posisi ari-ari juga baik, alhamdulillah. Dan kata dokternya gpp untuk masa sekarang makan aja terus, nanti kalu udah mau kelebihan BBnya dokternya akan ngingetin, hihih baiklahhh..abis dari dokter kami langsung ke swalayan nyetok makanan :D
aih senangnya..
Dari dulu pengen cerita bagaimana awalnya pas tau kalau hamil, apalagi waktu itu lagi di Singapur seorang diri.
Sebelum lupa, mau coba reka ulang dan mengingat2 lagi bagaimana kejadiannya :D
Tanggal 19an Juli (atau 20? yang pokoknya minggu2 itu deh)
telpon2an sama mama, mam cerita kalau Sari sering pusing-pusing, dan lemes terus, karena teringat cerita seorang teman yang mengalami gejala itu pas lagi hamil, akupun berkomentar "wah, jangan-jangan hamil tuh mam". Pada saat itu udah 3 minggu di Sing, dan sempet mengalami gejala nyeri di bagian PD, tapi karena itu juga mirip gejala mau datang bulan jadi ga terlalu kepikiran.
Tanggal, 26 Juli, telp ke rumah, dan mam ngabari kalau Sari hamil, alhamdulillah! FYI,mas andri (my bro) dan Sari baru menikah Maret tahun ini. Diam-diam, mam juga mendoakan agar aku dan mas alfa yang duluan nikah dan udah menikah selama hampir 1 1/2 tahun juga segera dikaruniai anak. Waktu itu aku udah telat 51 hari, berhubung jadwal datang bulanku ga lancar, aku terbiasa menghitung siklusnya, dan biasanya max cuma 45 hari, jadi agak curiga, tapi masa iya sih...
Tanggal 27 Juli,mas alfa datang menengok ke Sing, karena suatu permasalahan, kami sempet berantem :(
sempet kepikiran, huhuuu jauh2 ditengok kok malah berantem, coba kalo beneran hamil, pasti suasananya akan jauh berbeda.
Tanggal 28 Juli, Karena curiga hamil itu, aku minta mas alfa beliin testpack dari Indo, soalnya di Sing mahaal :( waktu itu nginep di hotel jadi langsung di tes di kamar mandi (kalo di apartemen kudu nunggu syepi..abis malu :P) dan eng ing eng...garisnya dua! sempet shock dan ga percaya, soalnya karena datang bulan yang ga lancar itu, kami sering sekali mengira aku hamil, bolak balik test pake testpack tapi negatif mlulu..
Rasanya bahagia sekali tapi belum bener2 lega, soalnya masih ada kemungkinan salah, akhirnya langsung beli lagi testpack di Watson (asumsinya harga lebih mahal jadi mestinya lebih akurat kan yaa :D dan hasilnya sama-sama positif. Aku langsung menangis bahagia dan mas alfa juga luar biasa senangnya :-)
rasanya, masa-masa ini udah lewat
rasanya, aku akan lebih bahagia kalau mengurus suami dan anak, dan aku sepertinya sudah siap untuk menjadi ibu.
Subhanallah, Allah langsung memberi karuniaNya :')
Setalah seminggu kemaren sangat excited menunggu tanggal 3 des karena suami pulang..hari ini kembali sedih karena suami pergi lagi siang tadi ke Pekanbaru..tempatnye bekerja mencari rezeki untuk keluarga kecil kami.
Sebeneranya setalah beberapa hari biasanya aku udah kebiasa lagi, soalnya di Bandungpun tinggal bareng keluarga, dan komunikasi dengan suami pun masih bisa dilakukan cukup sering (thanks to skype dan paket nelpon dari kartu As :D)
Cuma biasanya berasa bangetnya pas suami baru pergi...yang biasanya ada temen ngobrol, jalan2, ketawa-ketawa, manja-manja, tiba2 kembali sepi... :(
Kenapa aku ga ikutan suami ke Pekanbaru, you may ask?
Well, karena aku berencana melahirkan di Bandung, soalnya kalo di Pekanbaru takut keteteran ><
anak pertama sih.. :-s dan mama serta ibu mertua ga bisa nungguin lama-lama karena sama-sama wiraswasta :(
jadilah terpaksa jauh2an dulu...insyaAllah taun depan kami udah bisa sama-sama di Pekanbaru, bertiga sama Nabil, aminnn :-*
Sesuai saran bu dokter, aku ngemil tiap 2jam sekali biar baby ga kelaperan, dan kalo telat, nabiw udah nendang2...ihihih..makanmu banyak bgt sih nak...
Minum jus, roti, susu, sari kacang ijo, pancake,eskrim, risoles, jadi santepan tiap nabil mulai nendang-nendang.
Akibatnya?
Td pas nimbang berat udah 57 kilo, which means...
I gained 1kg per week???
Is that even normal???
:-s :-s :-s
Alhamdulillah usg kmaren ditemenin suami, walaupun harus ngantri dokter sampe jam 12 malam @@ teteup dibelain supaya bisa USG pas suami lagi di Bandung.
Perkembangannya:
BB ibu: 54 kg (total naik 6 kilo, uhuy!)
BB baby: 413 gram (Alhamdulillah normal)
Panjang baby: 36.5 cm (waaah, panjang yaaa, terakhir kan baru 15 cm) hihi salah baca usgnya, mestiny 15 cm, lho kok sama ya dengan sebelumnya? :-/
Daannn..yang paling mendebarkan adalah pas dokter mau ngasih tau jenis kelaminnya, soalnya penasaran banget ...apa feeling bundanya ttg anak laki2 itu bener atau ga, dan... dokternya udah confirm kalau insyaAllah laki-laki.
Subhanallah ya...ternyata memang ada ikatan batin antara ibu dan bayi, padahal feeling itu kan ada sejak awal, pas babynya belum berkembang sama sekali...
Mas Alfa tentunya senang banget, soalnya dari duluu dia udah bilang kalo anak pertama pengen laki2, supaya bisa jadi pemimpin yang baik katanya, dan bisa diajak main bola dan berantem2an :p
ini hasil USG 21 minggu, ganteng yaa ..semoga idungnya ngikut ayahnya jadi mancung :D
Setelah harap-harap cemas karna tak kunjung juga merasakan gerakan baby, alhamdulillah tadi malam akhirnya ngerasain juga, ada kedutan2 :-)
dan rasanya emang beda, mirip angin sih, tapi lebih kerasa :D
ternyata anak ini aktifnya malem toh...soalnya tadi malam lagi ga bisa tidur jadi masih bangun ampe jam 2an, dan gerakan baby sangat intens terasa..:D
lucunyaaaa :-)
hwaa...apa nanti anakku jadi arsitek juga? :-s :-s
Beberapa hari yang lalu bumil kena flu.
Mungkin karna perubahan cuaca yang ekstrin dari mojokerto yang puanass ke Bandung yang ujan tiap hari. Mungkin juga karena kecapean. Pokoknya malam pas nyampe ke Bandung langsung sakit tenggorokan :(
Biasanya kalo udah sakit tenggorokan gitu aku minum decolgen, dan langsung enakan.Tapi berhubung bumil ga boleh minum obat jadinya ampe srot-srot uhuk uhuk deh :(
Tanya-tanya ke temen dan cari-cari di internet, ternyata ibu hamil boleh minum panadol yang biru dan cdr. Tapi karena aku toh ga perlu ngantor dan kerja di rumah aja, jadinya ku bertekad ga mau minum obat-obatan, yang alami sajah :D minum air putih yang banyak, makan jeruk, sampe ngisep jeruk nipis langsung buat ngilangin batuk (aseeeeuummm! x( emang jadinya flunya agak lama sih, 5 harian gitu...
Tapi alhamdulillah sekarang udah sehat walafiat :D
Sejak usia kandungan 3 bulan aku rajin dengerin musik klasik buat baby..ga tau juga sih apa baby udah bisa dengerin ato ga. Hmm..sebenernya ga ngerti juga judul musik apa yang disarankan, tapi aku suka lagu-lagunya Yanni, instrumental piano dan easy listening jadi ga terlalu ribet kaya musik klasik lainnya..tapi Yanni itu termasuk musik klasik ga ya? *ngarang*
Selain itu sejak awal kehamilan aku berusaha untuk mengaji setiap sholat. Kata mam suapaya babynya jadi anak yang soleh/solehah. Amiin, bahkan dulu pas masih kerja suka ngaji juga, apalagi dulu itu sholatnya di gudang (hiks, nasip) jadi cukup ada privacy :D
Kalo malam sebelum tidur, aku perdengarkan juga ayat-ayat suci Alquran, biasanya surat Yusuf atau Maryam (ada surat2 lain yang di recommend?) melalui.....ipad.
hihihi akhirnya nemu juga fungsi lain Ipad selain internetan dan main game.
Semoga usaha bunda cukup agar kamu jadi anak yang soleh/solehah ya nak..:-*
Alhamdulillah sejak kembali dari sing err..sebulan yang lalu (wah!udah sebulan ya?) kerjaan ada aja. Nerusin proyek yang tertunda, dapat kesempatan freelance dari Sing, proyek pribadi, ol store, dan proyek arsitekur pro bono (maksudnya gambarin kos2an abeh :D).
Sibuk ya?
Mestinya sih, hari ini aja, bangun rasanya banyak banget yang dikerjain, tapi kok ya bangunnya siang *malu*
trus bikin to do list biar ga ada yang kelupaan. Oke item 1,2,3 udah dikerjain..trus laper, makan dulu ah,
enaknya makan sambil nonton tipi nih, wah ga ada acara bagus di tipi, nyetel dvd ah.... Nonton eclipse.
Makan udah abis, nontonnya jalan terus..dan pelmnya lama yaa...2 stengah jam kayanya T_T
Alhasil beres nonton ampe jam stengah 5. abis itu lupa sama task2..dan malah internetan (sampe sekarang) T_T
susahnya fokus kerja kalo di rumah, apalagi ga ada sense of deadline berhubung ga ada bos yang ngingetin.
Susah disiplin kalo di rumah, walaupun aku mensyukuri masih bisa kerja, masih bisa berkarya, dan bisa mengatur waktu kerja sendiri, ga usah cape2, apalagi dengan kondisi hamil kaya gini.
Alhamdulillah...
mesti belajar disiplin nih, kalo ga bisa-bisa babynya ikutan jadi pemalas :-s
BB: 53.5 kg (hihihi! belum pernah melampaui 50 kg seumur2 xD)
lingkar perut : 87.5 cm (2 minggu lalu baru 84 lho! dan ini baru sarapan aja ;p)
minggu lalu suami pulang dari abu dhabi, setelah 1 stengah bulan ga ketemu, rasanya hampir lupa gimana rasanya ada suami ;p
Tapi setelah bersama suami selama 10 hari..enak yaa ada suami...apalagi lagi hamil gini, rasanya suami jadi super perhatian dan pengertian (ah tapi suamiku dari dulu emang perhatian ;D), seneng ada temen jalan2, ngobrol2, ketawa ketiwi..sekarang pas suami udah balik ke Pekanbaru lagi, rasanya sepiiii ;(
Dari awal aku udah nyuruh suami sering2 ngobrol ke baby, dan ternyata kalo udah 19 minggu gini, baby udah bisa mendengar suara-suara dari luar, jadi pas suami nelpon, aku deketin hpnya ke perut supaya suami bisa ngobrol sama baby, ngobrolin apa ya mereka? :D
Alhamdulillah hari ini masuk 17 minggu..atau 4 bulan 1 minggu..ga sabar ketemu baby soalnya terakhir kontrol 1 bulan yang lalu di Sing, dan abis itu naik pesawat dan sempet angkat2 barang berat karna pindahan :-s
Pas nyampe Bandung sempet bingung mau kontrol dimana, soalnya pengennya kontrol di dokter yang sama sampe seterusnya melahirkan, jadi ga ganti-ganti. Dan dokter yang enakeun dan udah cocok itu adanya di kimia farma (details here)
Dan Alhamdulillah kali ini suami punya asuransi jadi dicover perusahaan, tapi sayangnya kimia farma tidak termasuk RS yang dicover. Hiks!
Atas info seorang teman, ternyata Dr Wid juga praktek di Hermina (yang termasuk RS yang dicover), Yay!
Jadilah tadi pagi kami (aku , mam dan abeh yang pengen liat cucu :p) kontrol ke Hermina.
Sudah lama ga di USG, jadi agak deg2an..babynya udah segede apa ya?
apa aja yang keliatan ya?
Alhamdulillah semua normal, diliatin kepala baby, perkembangan otak udah baik, asam folat ga boleh lupa, tangannya gerak2! kadang di atas kadang di bawah (huuu lucunyaa) jari-jari lengkap (alhamdulillah) tulang punggung sempurna, ukuran 15 cm dan berat 200 gram..huu lucunyaa..
Jenis kelamin belum keliatan, ditutupin sama baby..hihi malu ya nak?
tapi kata Bu Dokter ada 2 titik..mmmm apa maksudnya? :D feelingku sih baby boy, ga tau kenapa.. dan tiap ke toko baju baby selalu liatnya baju2 anak2 laki2, dan warna-warna biru, padahal dulu sebelum hamil sukaaa banget sama baju baby girl yang lucu-lucu itu. Katanya sih emang ibu bisa punya feeling ttg jenis kelamin anak, tapi ya wallahu alam (kalo feelingnya salah gmn ya? kurang ikatan batinkah? hihihi).
Sebenarnya sebelum memutuskan di Hermina aku sempet kepengen di Boromeous, dan dokter yang direkomendasikan temen adalah Dr Ellis, kalo berdasarkan infonya sih biaya melahirkan di sana lebih murah (hmm..need to call the hospital to confirm tough)
Kalo di hermina ini listnya:
Biaya melahirkan di Hemina Pasteur, Bandung (per Januari 2010)
Persalinan normal dengan dokter (Amiiiin semoga normal!), rawat inap 3 hari
Kelas VIP 12-16 juta
Kelas Utama 11-14 juta
Kelas I 9-11 juta
Kelas II 7-10 juta
Kelas III 6-8 juta
mahal yaa.. :( belum tau sih mau ngambil yang mana, mesti diskusi dulu sama suamin, tapi alhamdulillah ada asuransi :-)
Memang semuanya dikasih Allah pada saat yang tepat, kalo taun lalu melahirkannya mungkin akan bingung soal biaya yang mahal, tapi alhamdulillah saat ini insyaAllah ada rezekinya.
Aminn semoga semuanya lancar sampai melahirkan (err..masih lama sih :p)
Alhamdulillah udah hampir 2 minggu di Bandung, dan besok mas Alfa pulang dari Abu Dhabi. (YAAAAAAAAAAYYY!!)
Pas baru sampe rumah ada perasaan yang aneh, remember those feelings I had before I worked in Singapore? the helpless feeling, passionless, routine, and the tendency for me to get very comfortable and not challenging myself? Well those feelings back :(
Dan beberapa bulan terakhir ini rasanya seperti mimpi aja, seperti tidak nyata. Karena suasananya sannggaat berbeda. Walau pada awalnya aku (agak) menyesali pergi ke Sing, tapi sampai sana (akhirnya) aku merasa hidup, the environment, the people, the experience, It's was all very overwhelming.
But still, I'm glad to be home, I still have those 'morning sickness' and its very relieving to have my mom took care of me, and provide me with the delicious food I've been craving back in Singapore :-)
Alhamdulillah...
sungguh memang rencanaNya itu luar biasa..
terimakasih ya Allah atas semua kemudahan2 ini..
terimakasih ya Allah atas semua pengalaman menakjubkan yang telah Engkau pilihkan..
subhanallah..
Alhamdulillah :-)
For the pas few weeks all I've been thinking is about going home to Bandung, about family, about not having to work, about leaving Singapore as soon as possible.
Until today.
Today is my last day, we're having a hari raya celebration as well, so it's perfect for ending the day.
To my surprise, i got very emotional.
At first my archi team gave a baby presents, cute shoe and a musical toy..I got teary right away.
Next, my boss told me he got a different present for me..I thought maybe gift voucher? :D
but then when I opened the envelope, it's a
Gimana rasanya hamil seorang diri (ga deket suami dan keluarga maksudnya) di negera orang pula?
Ga enak banget tentunya :((
pada masa2 ini kan mestinya manja2 berat ke suami, ngidam macem2 dan minta dibeliin walopun malam buta :P
pas pegel2 ada yang mijitin, mau ngeluh kaya gimana ada yang nenengin :(
mau makan apa aja ada yang masakin (kalo deket mama).
Tapi aku (belum) ngerasain semua itu. Dan Alhamdulillah si kecil ga rewel, aku ga ngidam apa2 dan mual2 juga ga ampe muntah.
Mungkin memang harus begini jalannya, supaya aku ga manja, supaya anak ini menjadi anak yang mandiri dan tabah, dan pinter menjaga perasaan bundanya (amiinn :')
Lagipula insyaAllah bentar lagi aku pulang ke Bandung, finally with my family at last, and next month, I'll be seeing my husband. Yay!
Hari ke dua Lebaran dihabiskan dengan...berenang :D
well temen2 berenang dan aku cuma..umm..kecipak2 di air (lupa bawa baju ganti T_T abisnya ga nyangka juga bs nyebur walo pake baju lengkap, soalnya di private condo sih :p)
Sebenarnya ini bukan yang pertama kali, taun lalu aku dan suami juga sempet kebagian minggu ke 2 lebaran di KL, yah maksudnya ini pertama kalinya aku pas hari H ada di negri orang. Sendirian.
*mewek*
Sebenernya ga sendirian juga sih, kan berdua sama baby :-)
*sabar ya nak*
Terpaksa karna masih belum berani naik pesawat berhubung baru masuk minggu ke 12. Jadi disabar2in ngerasain lebaran ga bareng keluarga.
Sebenernya karena disini juga bukan negara muslim, suasana lebaran dan puasa ga terlalu terasa, apalagi aku ga ikutan puasa selama sebulan penuh (takut pingsan, mana ga ada yang ngurusin :-( jadi ga terlalu sedih.
Yang berasa pas kemarin naik mobil ke KBRI untuk sholat ied. Wiji nawarin untuk bareng mobilnya, jadilah kami ke KBRi sama2, diiringi sama takbiran di radio. Tiba2 keinget suasana kalo kami sekeluarga mu sholat ied di ITB, selalu radionya nyetel takbiran juga, baru deh terasa nyesek di hati...cuma mau nangis malu :P
Konon kabarnya tiap hari lebaran selalu ada open house, dan berhubung pagi itu aku belum sarapan (ternyata di rumah udah ga ada apa-apaan, cuma minum susu deh, huhu). Mulai agak2 pusing karna ga nemu buffet dan teman2nya @@
Ternyata di rumah dubesnya :P
maka aku yang bareng Alin yang khusus menyusul demi mendapatkan lontong sayur, langsun menuju TKP, salaman sama dubes nanti aja! yang penting makan sebelum pingsan (akhirnya malah ga salaman sama sekali, hihihi :P)
ternyata oh mai god...rameeeenyaaaa......
kaya di mekah.
Dan mulai terlihat sekali suasana orang2 Indonesia, ngantrinya ngawur ampe 3 baris 1 antrian, desak2an, siapa cepat dia dapat, hihi, tapi Alhamdulillah dengan semngata 45 mendapatkan makanan enak, bumil baik2 saja dan selamat melewati antrian yang lebih kurang 15 menit itu (nyampe selama itu ga ya? :P) tentunya sambil ngemil kue2 kecil yang ueenakk bangeettt *terharu*
Maka menu hari itu adalah:
kue2 basah
nasi +lodeh+rendang+opor telur+udang balado (empingnya habis, hhuhuhu)
uennakk bangett
dan sate padang :9
acara berikutnya ada dangdutan , tapi bumil udah cape dan ngantuk.
sebenernya ada undangan open house dari temen ..cuma rumahnya jauh2...tampines...woodlands..huhuhuu ga kuatt.
Jadi hari itu dihabiskan dengan tidur siang dan nonton pelm :P
Okay, last Thursday, the night before hari raya, or malam takbir is the night when my office had the Family Day.
It's actually an anniversary party for the office but we can bring along family or friends.
It's better than the previous idea where it's suppose to be a very big party with fireworks and invited clients and we suppose to host them and keep them drunk (yes, that actually what my boss said.) Imagine, on malam takbir *rolling eyes*
Anyway, because of the time constraint, they decided to have a family day instead. So i invited my cousins, so they can see my cool office.
The party was actually great, good food, and a lot of small children an babies! :-)
My only party dress is the tight dress my sister packed me, so the baby bump is kinda shows... :"D
Here's what's it's like!
I know it's been a while since my last post (errr...almost a month maybe?) which means I also broke my own promise to write at least once a week.
One of the promises I made when I decided to stay in Singapore again is to keep blogging. Okay, once a week it's still good enough, at least I have a record of my journey in life.
How am I doing lately?
It's good, I'm getting used to the situation, no more regrets, or tears for that matter. No more homesick, and yes, still counting days.
Okay, still with passion searching. So on may latest workbook in the passion test, it stated that whatever decision you've made, it have to be for the sake of our passion. Even tough it seems impossible, but that decision will lead you to a better thing, your passion.
Then this opportunity to work in Singapore come. My dream is to open my own business and to have a flexible working hours, but all of that require a big amount of capital. I thought, this could be it, working in Singapore can provide me the capital I needed. So I took the offer.
But if I really look at it, I probably getting away from my passion. The idea to have my own business is for me to be able to spend my time with family, have more time doing the things i love. Choosing to be away from them and working 9hours (or more!) a day is not giving me enough time for myself.
If I want to have capital for my business, I could've taken other ways, I could've taken the offer to be an insurance agent( I know, i know, it's soo not me, but the profit you'll get it's rewarding you know!), or i could've explore the design and build projects in Bandung. There's so many other ways! why choose this?
I couldn't answer. And honestly, I still have regrets.
But the decision have been made. And I'm here. The best way to handle this is just to enjoy the experience. And be grateful of what I have.
But I can't help to wonder, If I really followed my heart. If I reject this offer and follow the options for the sake of my passion. Where I would be right now?
Have I told you before about the temptation? the confusion I'm having?
Well the story is I had a job offer from Singapore, it was really sudden and I didn't see that coming, I was really focused on my dreams, mu online boutique and my passion searching which didn't involved in Architecture at all. Right when I was certain that architecture is not my passion and not in my future plan, the phone rang;
It was from my former boss who had moved to another company and became 'the big boss', he offered me a job without have to come for an interview.
For others that could be a blessing. Because I know a lot of people wants to work in Singapore, but they face difficulties since they have to apply in so many company, doing interviews, and not to mention the permit application.
I din't instantly said no, or said yes for that matter. I hesitated.
Well the money is good but I just not sure want to go through that path anymore, I don't think I want to do architecture in a daily basis. I'm happy in my current state, I'm enjoying my life, I still do architecture jobs but it's freelance so I can manage the time myself.
But then I thought, I should think about the new adventure I will get, that's always a good thing. Most people wanted to experience working abroad and living in a foreign country. I got to experience that, 3 times. And everything seemed very smooth like I really meant to do this.
So with that consideration, we decided that I should take the offer.
So here I am, in Singapore, and living another great adventure in my life.
Actually thanks to my lack of understanding in business, my poor calculation ability, and my low self esteem I didn't make much profit. But I actually enjoying every bit of it. Maybe this is it, maybe this is my passion, the things that I willing to do even tough I'm not making a lot of money out of it?
Yay!!
And I have a big dream for this online boutique of mine, I do hope I'll learn a lot, grow, and bring this business to a whole other level, one day.
For now, I'm grateful :-)
In my attempt to find my passion, I did anything I could think of. I took the test from The Passion Test. I took online test, I browsed, I attend workshops, all sort of things.
So the major question is..do I manage to find my passion?
Well the answer to that is yes..and no.
You see, the answer to my passion is not as clear as I might think it'll be. There's kind of people who had a clear vision about their passion, what they're going to do in their lives. And I always thought that I'm that kind of people. The problem is I'm easily distracted, moody, and had a short term memory.
Let's review one by one about my findings.
based on this, it's actually very easy to find our passion. But the brain had a mind of its own. It like to jump around to avoid things that is difficult and troublesome and goes to the things that is easy and laid back.
I haven't really quite there yet but one thing for sure; my source of happiness is not how much I have achieved or how far I have traveled, but it's my family. And even if I have found my true passion, the things I want to do, without my family, it will never be the same.
And other things that I lack in my life now is the feeling of grateful.
I often felt lost, lazy, unfortunate, and too focused in finding my passion and feeling too self conscious I forgot to be grateful. I'm to focused too the things I wish to achieved and forgot to be grateful for what I have achieved. There's no reason for me to feel unhappy, and the reason for finding my passion s not because i'm not happy, but because i'm trying to live the fullest.
She's just an ordinary girl who fell in love.
It was love at the first sight.
It was the only love she had.
As dance with her own thoughts, she heard the music inside hear head,,
"Whisper softly softly in my ear
Say all the things I want to hear
So speak low, if you speak love
Oh baby baby drink the poison
We can disappear, away, away from here
Can you hear?
Whisper softly in your ear,
We will never, ever know
Cause our love was always a secret
I say those god damn kids got nothing on me
They just laugh and dance at insecurities
Well I know who I am
Do you know who I am?
Oh baby baby drink the poison
We can disappear, away, away from here
Can you hear?
Whisper softly in your ear,
We will never, ever know
Cause our love was always a secret
Tell me, can you hear
Whisper softly in your ear,
We will never, ever know
Cause our love was always a secret
I say those god damn kids got nothing on me
I say those god damn kids got nothing on me
Cause I know who I am
Do you know, who I am?
I say those god damn kids got nothing on me
I say those god damn kids got nothing on me
Well I know who I am
And You'll never know who I am
Can you hear
Whisper softly in your ears,
We will never, ever know
Cause our love was always a secret"
Can you hear
Whisper softly in your ear,
We will never, ever know
Cause our love was always a secret
Tell me, can you hear
Whisper softly in your ear,
We will never, ever know
Cause our love was always a secret"
She felt cold, and her mind felt numb.
She take a deep breath...releasing her feeling..
releasing everything..
It's time..she thought.
And the she jump.
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lyrics by:My American Heart
Okay, remember the project I've told you before?
The one I was excited about? I took hours to make it perfect and actually enjoy doing it? The things I've been doing for 2 weeks full and neglecting other projects?
It's suppose to launch tomorrow but I will give you a sneak peek.
Pls click:
Yess! I'be been wanting to do this since 2 years ago. But don't have the courage and enough determination to do it.
I know it's not much, and a lot of people doing the same thing these days.
But I put my heart for this project. There's love and passion in it.
So do visit and enjoy!
And do some shopping won't hurt too :-)
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